It’s been a while since I posted anything.
A lot has been going on. The event I was waiting for… Didn’t happen. In fact, it got postponed until 2023. I’ve already talked about this, but…
I’m going to freely admit that this delay hurt me deeply.
I want – need – to get past this thing that has dominated so many years of my life. Finding a way past it – getting closure is what I’ve wanted for a long time.
But actually, getting closure is another matter.
I need it, want it.
But it’s hard to get.
I’d thought that maybe I could move forward without anything having to happen – but it doesn’t work that way, does it?
It’s hard to accept that reality. But I don’t have a choice. I can’t fully move on until I get closure, and I can’t get closure until next year.
Catch 22.
But then what else can I do?
Waiting is all I can do.
Wait.
And it’s hard doing that.
More soon.